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One day I woke up and knew that life has to offer me more than getting up, going to work, going to sleep, and repeat. I didn’t want to be the main actor in a rat race any further!
Since I was a teen, people told me, it was a problem that I am interested in nearly everything and did too many things simultaneously. Honestly, whenever I get into a new topic, I love to explore it and find out more. Always. I’m always seeking for the truth and more knowledge. This brings color in my life, but also some fidgeting and restlessness. Since my days at school, I was told I should not do so many things at once but better focus on one project and finish it timely. Most of the time I’m just not able do this because there are so many cool things to explore.
Later, I was unsure if I wanted to study law or physics as I was highly interested in both topics. The teachers, my family, and friends convinced me that I would be better to study something useful. Something where I can easily find a job and security. So I choose to study law. This seemed to fit the expectations (at least of the others). The truth was, I was not confident enough even to try study physics – because I thought I can’t do it and feared failure. I feared, everybody would tell me that I had been wasting my time in case of failure. So, I didn’t even try to do what I really wanted and choose the traditional and more secure way. That was ok and I liked my studies but there was an unconscious desire which made me somewhat uncomfortable. (And no, the traditional way didn’t pay off as promised…). I did not find a job for a long period of time and I didn’t get high wages. In addition, I felt that something was missing.
I discovered very late in my life that I behave like a multi-passionate person. I love to explore new things and learn, and my interests seem unlimited. Sometimes I don’t finish a certain topic, and I learned that it is ok to quit if I’m done with it. Upon the recommendation of a friend, I read Barbara Sher’s great book „Refuse to Choose“ and found out that I was not alone! Yay!
Until this sensational discovery I was confronted with never ending advice how I can find out what fits for me and that I have to finish what I started. There was so much to know and to explore, but I was told to finish my studies right away and search for a job. So, I did finish my study of law and started working in a law firm. About that time, I started riding Icelandic horses and got passionate about them (the horses are my passion until now). The horses helped a lot to develop my personal skills. So far, so good. However, my desire to get more knowledge and to do what I’m interested in grew enormously. Intrinsically, I dreamed of studying physics but I always thought I’m not enough for such a complex subject. I forgot about that but always regretted not even having tried.
A few years later, the uncertain feeling and the desire grew so big that I wanted to know if I was smart enough to study physics. Suddenly, I was brave enough to give it a try, and I found out that I could do it. I didn’t finish but that was ok for me. After some time I was interested in philosophy and began to study at university 20 years after my law studies. That was strange! I managed to work and study full-time and I love doing that!
So far, this has led me to an MBA degree and a BA degree in philosophy in addition to my law degree – this were topics that thrilled me until the end. People told me that it wouldn’t be possible, but I did it – because I so badly wanted it. This uncertain feeling of incompleteness vanished when I decided to live my life and just try doing what I’m interested in without caring about other people’s opinions. I love doing multiple things simultaneously and love my active and adventurous lifestyle. It is hard work and needs good organization to be as efficient and productive to manage all parts of my life but it is worth it!
By telling you my story, I would like to show you that so much is possible if you really want it, and above all that it’s always worth trying. Even if you have to try many things before you discover your purpose.
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